I’ve been knocked on my ass for the last time. As I expected, my body has readjusted its settings to transition into a mindset of a fighter. It’s well into the wee hours in the morning and I managed to pull myself off of the computer, only to pick up my phone to write this post. One of Clark Atlanta University’s motto is “Find A Way or Make One.” I used to live by that. When you need a solid solution to a problem, you’ll find yourself digging into the inner depths of you just to figure out every possible option. I remember watching this Whoopi Goldberg movie, where she kept a box of ideas her boss rejected. In a clutch she pulled them out when she was running her own business and didn’t need the approval of her boss. I’m in a clutch, and damn right I’m taking it there.
VIA Sister Paterson’s request, I’ll soon be finding an alternative place to live. I found the perfect studio apartment, but events leading up to the eventual foreclosure of my home have left me with less than desirable credit. I want this place, and I will try hard to get it even if my cosigner doesn’t get approved.
My first taste of making my own way was when I realized that if I could drop $2,000 to pay the lease in full, I wouldn’t need a cosigner. I don’t know how the hell that’s gonna happen, but it got the ball rolling. I immediately updated my craigslist ads selling my stove and advertising my writing/editing services. Then I priced other things to sell. From there, I got proactive and brushed the cobwebs from my Elance profile and submitted proposals for a few projects. Elance limits me to 3 free proposals/mo so I began exploring other options. I checked the “writing gigs” in Kansas City’s craigslist. After realizing that I provide virtual services, I moved on to Atlanta’s craigslist, then Austin’s, and on down the list until I pulled myself off of the computer.
Her Royal Flyyness is back!
I remember when one of my big sisters taught me how to properly fight in school while getting in as little trouble as possible. She told me never hit first. If you hit first then you started the fight, and you would be the one to get in the most trouble. I later learned that if you don’t hit first, you run the possibility of getting knocked the fuck out of giving that bitch the upper-hand. You also have to show moxy to be that first hitter. You are officially writing a check that your ass better be able to cash. That takes guts. Hell, even if you loose, at least you had the balls to try.
That’s how I’m feeling now. My balls are full grown and I’m hitting life first before it can get me. I’ve adopted this new game plan and my body knows it. That’s why I’m still awake at 4am. If I sleep, I’ll dream. I don’t feel like dreaming. I already have a dream. Right now it’s time to brainstorm and act so I can achieve my dream.
God forbid I don’t get this apartment, I’ll be fine. I have a plan B, C & D. Yet and still, I have life by the balls…fingernails gripped in…twisting.
Life’s a bitch. Treat her as such and run that shit!